i wanna skin myself.

he's all lets-talk-about-what-you-want-in-life. I'M STILL 21!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT! actually i know what i want, i just dont know if i really really want it...you know?

sigh.

and he's all why-do-you-think-god-put-you-in-this-world? what-is-god's-grand-plan?

wellllll....i dont know why im here. seriously. i obviously did not ask to be born. thats what i always tell my mom at least. and she said if she knew it was me coming out, she would have shoved me back in. very nice, mother. good to know. we have a loving relationship, my mother and i.

to ask what my purpose on earth is, is to ask why god created humanity and the entire universe. i personally think he was bored. or maybe he created all these angels but there's nothing for them to do. so, God created Adam and Eve. they're the guinea pigs. im sure they look really different from how we are now. to spice things up, we got ourselves the devil and his minions, of course. and to add to the air of mystique and wonder, we got the universe and all the science-y things for humans to do. so that WE have something to do too...and while we go along doing our daily routine, God is watching.

i'm saying all this with no disrespect to God. I'm just saying. *SHRUGS*

Okay, im gonna go pray now. Please dont throw me to hell for this.