it's really hard, isnt it? Trying to save money...especially when you've gotten use to spending money whenever you feel like it..thats much much easier...you just go ooooohh..nice shoes! i like it! I buy it!

It's like i feel like im going through shopaholic recovery or something..a friend once told me im too self-indulgent. Might be true..its like i just feel so sad when i'm deprived of things that i want and i know i can afford it but i just can't buy it cos i need to save money...it makes me sad...